YES..I CAN..!

I was sitting on the chair outside the PANEL 1 waiting for my MICA interview..the interview that I had dreamed about zillion of times.. Those 27 minutes that I had to wait outside on that chair, filled my mind with nervousness and I was finding it impossible to control the state of my mind..I was shivering and my limbs were trembling..but I could not afford the nervousness to subdue me at that time..So to overcome it, I closed my eyes..Following is A TRUE STORY..!

"I Can"..and "I can not"..
Both the things are possible..exactly the way you want..
Because your mind is steered by you and no one else..
And it can cross the 'DARK'..without incurring any dent..
For the torch of the 'WILL' can light the way..always..
With it's 'Switch' that you control..each night and every day..!


I opened my eyes and found myself in a an arbitrarily turbid place.. My feet were encumbered..My hands were tied but they had a sword in them..And then I saw 'THEM' rushing towards me stridently..They had long creepy legs with strong gigantically muscular arms..their body was thin though, but their hair and teeth were long and sharp..they ran towards me and cluttered around..and now I could see that they were definitely not humans..In few seconds, I was surrounded by an army of blood-colored entities and yes .. I was their PRISONER..

A coarsely strong and stentorian voice fell in my ears that came from among them and said...

"You must drop this 'Sword' and capitulate..
If you want your life in your body to remain..
or else you can chose to raise and fight..
and meet your end..You INCAPABLE HUMAN..You Trite..!"

They were hundreds and probably a lot more..and I had just a sword..Surrendering to them was the easier thing to do.. and so I was about to drop the sword but then I looked at my clutched feet devoid of THE FREEDOM..and a voice rose from within..

"I am a HUMAN..may be weak but NOT AN INCAPABLE..
How can I fall without trying..when FREEDOM is forever palpable..!
I will not capitulate..for now I am the exemption's perceiver..
and with the 'RED' I will inscribe the CHRONICLE OF MY ENDEAVOR..
For by standing and with this sword.. I can make them FALL
YES..I BELIEVE ..I CAN KILL THEM ALL.."

And then I stood still and my head brimmed with confidence..They saw it clearly and they knew what my answer was..And so..They ravaged towards me..All of them all together..I saw them coming and so I closed my eyes...

"I want to let myself free
I want to repeal this Darkness with the Light within Me..
So My Lord..Help Me and LET ME SHINE..!
And let I be your STAR to debilitate this DARK..this time.."

And then with an upheld head I opened up my eyes..I looked at my sword and it was shining with a fluorescent yellow light.. My feet were now disencumbered and I was wearing a shield with an iron mask like a GLADIATOR..And yes..Now I was ready to take them all..TO KILL THEM ALL..

I ran towards them slicing and gashing every one that came in my way..I rose my self higher to slit their throats..and I threw my sword to slash their heads.. I gnawed their limbs and cut open their chests..and yes there was blood all around..not mine but theirs..They came they fell..my sword incised their flesh and their blood oozed out of their bodies as if it never wanted to be in there..

27 minutes the battle was fought..and after it..there was no one left except me..I looked around..every where..the place was finally lit..by the LIGHT OF MY SWORD..

I Gained My Own Self and My freedom..Those 27 minutes defined me..and yes..those 27 minutes made me believe that YES..I CAN..!

THE FINAL OUTCOME: I went in the interview room, confident and determined, and after 50 long minutes..I got through..

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HYPO-DETERMINATION SYNDROME

CASE SCENARIO..
Date(Probable): 12th September 2008
Place(Definite): BCH Hostel Room number 401
Condition: Me on my bed..thinking..

"What the hell I am doing in this college..???"...(i did tell u about my habit of talking to my own self right?..i call this self introspection..anyway..carry on..!)

"Its been 25 interviews now..and I am still unemployed..hmmm..I dun think m gonna get any job from this college..hmmm..."..and then suddenly i remembered something..and then i called my friend.."Hey dude, how much will the CL Test Series cost me??..I have decided..I AM GOING ALL OUT FOR MBA..YES DUDE..YOU HEARD IT RIGHT..ALL OUT FOR MBA..I AM NOT SITTING FOR FURTHER COMPANIES..!!"..
I was pretty confident regarding that..I always have been like that you see..I believe that I have strong decision making skills..and I also believe that I am quite a determined person and once if I decide to do something then I will definitely do it come what may..!!..but this is just what I believe..actuality may differ ..99 percent times it does..but still my belief has stood unshaken in spite of all odds and all the failures..:)..

TWO DAYS LATER..
9:00 A.M. (Phone ringing..!!).."Hello..What..??..But they were supposed to come by 10 right??..yeah yeah..OBVIOUSLY YAR..I WILL SIT FOR THE COMPANY..AND WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THIS DUDE??..I AM STILL UNEMPLOYED."..

10:45 A.M...I was giving the written exam..

1:00 P.M..."yeaaaa!!..written cleared..just an interview and I will be through..!!"

5:00 P.M...(called my dad on his mobile..)"Dad..Interview got screwed..Dun worry..I have started preparing for my MBA..NO MORE COMPANY INTERVIEWS..FOR SURE..!"...

CASE SCENARIO: PRESENT

I am still trying for my MBA..m not unemployed though:)..and yes..I have joined the test series too!!..

Hmmm..!!..I dun know why..but this thing has always been with me..lack of determination.. and if i am not wrong..i can generalize this statement for most of the people in their earlier 20s ..!!!...

We always know what is required to be done..we even know how it has to be done..we also know that we can do that thing..but still we fail to do..and our focus keeps on oscillating!..Why..??..I call it the HYPO-DETERMINATION SYNDROME..(HDS)!!..

SYMPTOMS OF HDS:
1. Out of a sudden feeling of a belief in your own self that you can do anything..literally anything..!
2. Suddenly feeling happy and relaxed in spite of all the conundrums around you!
3. An instant feeling of exaggerated confidence..making inconceivable promises with people..and own self..

Last but not the least..

4. Excessively abrupt use of GOOGLE..for supposedly determinant searching for SOMETHING!!!!(its the most dangerous of all..)..

If you have any of these symptoms..then sadly and unfortunately you are suffering with HDS my friend..!!..

and if you are infected..dun worry..cure is not that difficult..!!.. It will just require a flashback of thoughts..!

Okay now just relax..take a long breath..close your eyes..think of the things that you were thinking few days back that suddenly converted your impulse into a determination...and now stop..!!..this is what the reality is dear..forget everything that you thought after this point..yes..my friend..you are cured!!!

DETERMINATION is a very heavy term friends...it asks for hard work..honesty..and your devotion..it does not suddenly pops out but it takes a lot for its inception... A determination can take you even to the unmeasurable heights..on the contrary..a whim or an impulse..or an out of a sudden "determination"..can only waste your time..!!..BEWARE!!!:)

Anyway..movie time!!.. movie for the day is CINDERELLA MAN..you will get to know what exactly the determination is!!!..its awesomely awesome !!

CHEERS..!!